Oh, hello there.
Those of you who know me personally know that I've recently been trying/struggling to learn how to play the guitar. I've been pretty deeply into it for a month or so, and I wanted to write about it, so here goes.
I picked up an acoustic guitar about a year and a half ago after a bad breakup. I can't possibly see how anything could be more cliche than that, but in all seriousness I'd wanted to learn how to play for the longest time. Breakups are unusual times in that you often find the courage to attempt something that seemed out or reach before. This wasn't my first guitar though, I begged my mom to buy me a guitar off of eBay in my early teens, wary of my excitement about such things in the beginning tending to wane over time, she consented to buy a cheap learner's guitar. I learned absolutely nothing on it and promptly gave up playing altogether. Aric 0, Guitar 1
Guitar and I again crossed paths near the end of high school. I started hanging out with some of the local punk rock kids and suddenly had access to a whole lot of instruments which were foreign and confusing to me. At about that time my best friend started learning to play and I'm convinced I would have had an 8-year head start if he had been right handed. Unfortunately playing lefty was out of the question. I never asked any of my other friends to teach me; I was too shy to ask. Aric 0, Guitar 2
Then, as I said above, I went and bought myself a nice acoustic guitar, determined to learn how to play it. My friend and roommate at the time, Justin, was just picking up the instrument again after a hiatus and another friend, Amber, was nurturing a budding interest as well. It seemed like the perfect storm for me to learn. Able to make mistakes in front of Amber, who was at the same level I was, while also learning from someone who knew considerably more than myself, Justin.
So I sat down and, over the course of a few weeks, I awkwardly grasped the basics of how to play. Justin showed me new chords, and I watched a series of
videos on YouTube by Justin Sandercoe, which I cannot recommend enough. I learned how to play a song or two and a handful of chords. Then, due to the start of a new relationship, problems at work, and life in general, I didn't play guitar for about 8 months. I would stroll past my Epiphone, pick it up maybe and strum a few notes on occasion, but nothing more than that from March through the end of last year. Aric 0, Guitar 3
So now, I'm sitting here wondering why I've started on this quest again. I'm struggling to pay bills, which doesn't leave me a lot of money to spend on leisure activities. Guitar only really required an initial cash investment (which I had already paid) and also time to sit and practice (which is free). I think another big reason is that I've really truly fallen in love with the Mountain Goats discography over the past year or so. I've always been a huge fan, but never felt like I had the grasp on his library the way I do now. John Darnielle performs with such intensity that I kinda want that moment, if only it's ever by myself in this room. Learning songs that I know/love has been a huge help in my current practice.
The real reason for this post is that I practiced for about 45 minutes tonight. Well, that's not really a big deal, but I'm sick and home from work tonight, very tired and a little depressed and I didn't want to play. I walked past the Epiphone and sort of scowled at it. I picked it up and reluctantly played a D chord (the first chord I learned and the automatic one I form when I pick up a guitar). Then I halfheartedly strummed out the tune to "
Weekend in Western Illinois" and hummed the lyrics quietly.
By the end of the song I was full throat into it and banging on my guitar the way that Darnielle often does. I'm going to go ahead and pat myself on the back. I had had a miserable night, play-wise, the night before. I couldn't get strumming right, strings were buzzing, and it was overall just very nonproductive and disappointing. So practicing at all tonight was a major step for me, in terms of the big picture of LEARNING TO PLAY GUITARâ„¢.
I don't know if I'll be able to update as I keep learning, but it's entirely possible I can feel bad about not updating, so you have that to look forward to.